the midnight

i don't why im awake at this hour??

went to sleep at 12 just now

and im awake now

can anyone tell me what is going on with me??

i get so pissed off recently

i don't why it happened to be like this

this kinda temper nearly never come to me for the past 2 year

and i seriously don't why it is back to hunt me again

i hate the feeling so much it will come to me whenever im talking to him

just like the one that day while waiting for the match at pelita

i get so pissed off suddenly

i just feel like throwing away the things around me and walk off

i can feel the heat inside my heart at the moment it is like burning in the fire

all i want is just go home and cry out loud

i couldn't remember when was the last time i getting so pissed off

it should be 2 years back sigh

after the day my temper keep on goes on

there is a feeling asking me dont talk to him anymore

whenever im on the phone with him i will get real pissed off half way through the conversation

i don't why it will be like this

i hate the feeling so so so much

whenever i started to feel mad i will try to tell myself not to

but in the end it will be pissing off like a thunderstorm

the feeling just make me hate him even more

make me pissed off at him even more

make me feel like he is hiding something from me

make me think of whatever bad things about him

i hate it so much

sigh, sigh, sigh

now that im awake i feel like missing him more

i dont understand my heart i don't what she want actually

i have been trying hard to communicate with her but i failed

i don't wanna walk the wrong path and regret in my life